I have always had a strong faith in God, knowing that He wants only good for us. However, I have not always acted upon that knowledge. I have struggled with fear and anxiety through out my adult years. For some reason the thing I was most fearful of, was getting surgery. Knowing that I'd have to be put out and wondering about medications and complications had me praying every time I was visiting someone at a hospital.
I woke up one night this past Spring with excruciating pain for the third time that month. It was the worst pain I had ever felt. (I gave birth completely naturally so I know pain.) I ended up in the Emergency Room and after running several tests and an ultrasound I found out I had gallstones and would need my gallbladder removed. When the doctor said the word, surgery, I just about lost it. I started to cry instantly like I was a child being told I could not have any dessert. The next few days were a blur of pain and a stir of emotions. But then out of nowhere, I felt a calming peace wash over me and at that moment, I knew God had this all planned out.
Yes, of course I was still nervous if I sat and thought about the details for too long. So I didn't. I held tight to the Lord's promises and spent every day leading up to surgery in prayer. It was the only thing that made me feel safe and calm. I kept praying very specific prayers, laying out each and every concern I had to the Lord. I would pray that my body did not have any reactions to the drugs they gave me and that I would not get a migraine after coming to, since I get chronic headaches and migraines.
The day of the surgery arrived and I walked into the hospital confidently knowing that God would be with me, every step of the way. I knew that His mighty hands would be leading the surgeons and nurses. When the surgery was over and I was awake, the doctor said that every thing went perfectly smooth and there were no complications. The best blessing, I did not have a headache or migraine and actually didn't have much pain at all. God made it clear to me, looking back over the next few days, that each and every single prayer request that I had brought to the Lord, was answered so specifically.
I know that God brought me through this not only strengthen my faith in Him by taking away my anxiety and fear, but to give me a story of praise and hope to share with others. I had courage to step out in faith listening to the Lord as He lead me to start my Instagram and blog to help women find freedom in Christ. I couldn't help but to look back after my surgery and think, that this was all part of my story. All part of the journey to help me build a stronger ministry for women who may be struggling themselves with faith, fear or anxiety.
In Ecclesiastes, we are told God allows both good and bad days so that we won't take anything for granted. I certainly believe this to be true because if I hadn't walked through this journey facing my biggest fear, I would not be on other side sharing with others His loyalty. So just trust Him. Just hold out your hand and God will hold you. He will walk through the fire with you. You don't have to be afraid anymore.
If you are going through something difficult or scary right now, I encourage you to reach out to the Lord and ask Him to hold your hand. Ask Him to walk with you and show you what He wants you to see. Because when you've overcome your fears and those bad days are behind you, they are never going to outweigh the amazing, blessed days that lie ahead.
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