God, pick up the pieces. Put me back together again.You are my praise!
Jeremiah 17:14 MSG
Raise your hand if you’ve ever felt broken beyond repair. You can’t see it, but if you could you’d be able to see that I actually have both of my hands up.
A few years ago I started to let myself stray from God. I saw it happening and I did nothing to stop it. At the time I really didn’t care. All I cared about was my social status in school. I thought I was happy and living the average teenage girl dream. I really wasn’t though; inside I was broken.
I wanted to fix my relationship with Christ, but I felt too far gone. The enemy was trying so hard to keep me and kept saying: “God won’t love you after all the mistakes you’ve made, why are you even trying?” I let that go on for longer than I would like to admit. Eventually it got to the point where I was just fed up. I was fed up trying to find happiness in all the wrong places, I was fed up with feeling less than what Christ called me to be and I was fed up with the feeling of brokenness.
I had to remind myself that God can do anything. His love and His mercy have no limits. One of my favorite worship songs says, “You delight in showing mercy, and mercy triumphs over judgement. My past embraced, my sin forgiven.” There is so much truth behind those lyrics. God will forgive us of our past, He will show us mercy and He will love us regardless of our past. That’s one of the many great things about Christ: He can forgive the things that we perceive as unforgivable.
Do I sometimes doubt that God will show me mercy and forgive me of my mistakes?
In the process of receiving God's forgiveness, am I also forgiving myself and pursuing a deeper intimacy with Christ?
Hey God, I just wanted to tell You how enchanting You are. It’s so reassuring to know your love and mercy for me will never cease. I praise You for that. I thank You for allowing me to fall more and more in love with You with each passing day.