I am an over-thinker, and I over-analyze nearly everything. This is how I have been for as long as I can remember. God must have created my personality to be this way for a purposeful reason. Being that I am twenty-five years young, I have found ways to overcome the over-analyzations and over-thinking; however, I definitely still have moments where I can't help but get deep in thought and re-think everything a thousand times.
For example, a recent conversation with my mom went something like this...
We were on the topic of homes. I am currently looking to (possibly, Lord willing) purchase a home to move on from renting. Exciting, right? Sure! It really is an exciting time and I do feel fortunate to be in the position to buy a home. However, I cannot help but be a little overwhelmed by the fact that I would be doing this as a single young adult. I feel as if I am planting my roots somewhere only because isn't that the assumed next step in life? I know there is no way that I am the only one in this situation, but I do not know anybody personally who has made that jump while single. It is daunting.
Commence the over-thinking process of this conversation...
I proceed to somehow be led to reminisce attending my university. I complained about the amount of studying often but if I am completely real and honest, I absolutely miss college SO MUCH. Due to the over-analyzing, I discovered why I miss it so dearly. Purchasing a home is a life milestone. It requires financial commitment, responsibility, independence and a confidence to succeed. All of these are necessary as a college student as well.
When I was attending university I felt a sense of accomplishment already. I knew what I had to do in order to get my degree. It was all mapped out, from classes to extracurriculars to the convenience of having best friends on campus. I knew there was a specific date when I would be finished and my hard work would earn me my degree.
Post-college I feel as if I am in a season of being stationary. I have a job that I love and a smooth sailing daily life for the most part, but I don't have that specific date that I am working towards as far as a home, a husband or raising a family, etc. I guess you could say that I crave that set goal and without it life feels still and quiet. It helps to know that my hard work is in fact being applied to something greater and with a specific purpose.
But you, take courage! Do not let your hands be weak, for your work shall be rewarded. 2 Chronicles 15:7
Enter the prayer of trusting God...
I believe that God does not want us to be stationary. That He does not want us to be okay with being comfortable. He does not want us to cease striving for something greater. He wants us to fully and without reservation lean on Him and trust that, while we are not given a specific agenda to life (wouldn't that be nice), in due time, His will shall be done. The challenge is redirecting to the fact that a deeper relationship with God is the goal. To glorify Him.
My prayer is for us over-thinkers. The ones who criticize their own words and actions more than what others may even notice. I pray that our hearts are aligned with the pursuit of Christ and the wisdom to understand that while we strongly desire a specific date for life's milestones, His date is ultimately greater. I pray that when we feel like we are in a stationary season, we grasp the power of God's hand in our lives, with appreciation that He is writing amazing stories for each of us that will help to further His Kingdom. Great adventures lie ahead.
Setting up enjoyable events that interrupt your mundane daily routines or weekend activities is something I felt led to pursue after lots of prayer. Spontaneity is a sure way to mend the feelings of being stationary, even if for a small amount of time. Think about what your passions are, what kind of hobbies you enjoy and revisit that bucket list of yours. What can you set out to accomplish to glorify God?
You are worthy, our Lord and God, to receive glory and honor and power, for you created all things, and by your will they were created and have their being. - Revelation 4:11