I praise You because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Your works are wonderful, I know that full well.
- Psalm 139:14
Red and yellow. Black and white. They are precious in His sight. Jesus loves the little children of the world. Oh, how true this is! This is surely a song that I would have told my younger self to sing when I was lacking self-esteem. You see, when I was younger I had a lot of body image issues.
My height has always been something that I struggled with emotionally. I would always try to beat everyone to the punch by making quick jabs and jokes at height first before anyone could ever get a word in. It always hurt more when someone mentioned my height first. They would say, “Wow, you really are short.”
One summer I started to notice my obsession with my appearance. I was self-conscious about gaining weight because of my height. I struggled with an eating disorder that entire year. It started with just “watching what I was eating.” Yet, my breaking point was when I started to hide my dinner in ziplock bags because I wanted my parents to think I was eating when truly I was not. It even interfered with relationships. I became a natural at pushing people away. My eating disorder was an addiction that I wanted control over because I felt as if a lot of things in my life I had no control over.
My sister, Brittany, was one of the many that showed me a glimpse of Jesus here on earth. She sat me down, and we had a little come-to-Jesus with Jesus. I remember just like it was yesterday. She handed me a piece of colored paper where she wrote Psalm 139:14 on it. She wrote my name down and told me to say the verse every day. So, every day I said, “I, Lauren, am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful, I know that full well.”
Psalm 139:14 was my anthem verse for so many years. It was the verse that made me want to seek Him more. When I look back at that season in my life I just see God’s mercy, forgiveness, and unconditional love. God met me in my surrender. I started to see God’s Word as protection over my life.
I want to tell every single one of you that if you have (or are) struggling with body image issues, you are not a statistic that needs to be ignored. You are not a taboo topic. You are a daughter of a righteous, forgiving, and loving Father.
1. What verse is your anthem verse when you are lacking self-confidence? It could even be a worship song that is your anthem song that you run to; what might that be?
2. Really think for a second. Who is that one person in your life that you know will sit down and be your accountability partner? An accountability partner is someone who will help you stay on track with God. If you do not have an accountability partner, who would you choose to be yours?
Dear Lord, thank You for wrapping Your arms around us. When the world wants to tell us that we are just a statistic when it deals with body image, please point us to the cross and Your truth! Thank you for meeting us in our surrender. Thank You for Your unwavering love, Father! Amen.