And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.
- Romans 8:28
I saw it coming. When I sat down to take my Chemistry final that day, my future hinging on that grade, I quietly prayed to myself, “God, please please please let me get an A.” I just needed to get a 90% on that final. If I could do that, I would get a B in the class, and if I could get a B in that class, I could get into the nursing program.
But I knew as soon as I submitted my exam I wouldn’t be getting in that year. Tears fell from my eyes and my head hung low as I walked back to my dorm. What happened? I was a good student. Sure, I could’ve studied more, but being a nurse was the only thing I ever really wanted. I remember stopping in the middle of the sidewalk, overtired and defeated, and hearing the Lord whisper to my heart, “Do you trust me?” It was in that moment that I knew this was much bigger than my acceptance into the nursing program. The Lord was beginning to change my heart.
Fast forward a year and a half later, I am a junior, and I will begin the nursing program here in the spring. Returning to school last year, and trying again, was one of the hardest and best things that has ever happened to me. With no backup plan, or easy way out, I had to learn how to trust God like never before. It began with surrendering everything to Him, my goals, my plans, my personal timeline. And when I felt frustrated or alone or angry with Him, He softened my heart and showed me that in the midst of disappointment, He is still good.
Jesus never said this would be an easy life. And if I’m being real, most days that is still a hard pill to swallow. Heartache and disappointment are real, and they don’t discriminate just because we are believers. But our response to these hardships changes.
The Bible promises that God is working everything together for our good (Romans 8:28), so no matter what trial comes our way, we can rest assured that He is not finished with us yet, and that we do not need to lose hope. That is a truth we can hold on to.
1. Think about times in your life when you felt disappointment. Was it hard for you to trust the Lord?
2. In regards to that, did you find that your first response was to turn to the Lord, or try to rely on your own strength?
3. What are some practical changes you can make in your life to allow yourself to trust God more?
Lord, we are so thankful for You. We are thankful that, even when we have a hard time believing it, You are good. Open up doors of opportunity in our lives to trust You. Fill us with Your peace and Your presence, and remind us that we are not alone. Help us to remember that You are working every situation for our good, even when we can’t see it. We love You, Jesus.