For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith--and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God. - Ephesians 2:8
There's no distance too far, that I can't reach you
There's no place that's so dark, that I can't find you
Anywhere that you are, if you need proof
Take a look at these scars, and know I love you
("Never Too Far Gone" by Jordan Feliz)
This song always comes to my mind when I think about God’s unconditional, unwavering, unfailing, and unending love for us. You see, Ephesians 2:8 sometimes would confuse me because we have so many different translations and interpretations in our world today about what faith truly is.
I don’t know about you, but I read and digest His word; then I try to seek accountability partners too. To not just hold me accountable on certain areas in my own life, but to ask them questions like, “Hey, I took this away from this verse, what did you take away from it?” I think it is so good to seek counsel, wisdom, and knowledge, all while knowing that God wants our own heart and personal journey with Him to be unique and our own.
I say this because I used to get mad at myself when my community time and just overall life did not mimic my fellow Christian friends. I would beat myself up because I would think, “Wow, my friends can juggle two jobs, on top of school, manage friend time, and stay active in two Bible study groups throughout their entire week.”
I finally understood faith when I learned that growth and intimate time with God is growth and intimate time with God, period. I learned to embrace my struggles, and I encourage you to do the same. Embrace the moments when you are truly 'trying'. Embrace the moments when you are listening to worship on Pandora and find your face looking like a war zone because you just love Him that much...but life is just hard.
God honors your honesty. He really does. He honors your personal growth and improvement. He does not require your walk to look all fancy with a cold-brew coffee skipping to the beat of the music, and have it look just like the walk of your friend, coworker, or fellow church members. Walk your own personal walk with God.
He wants your heart, not your to-do lists or your works, sister. I pray you embrace the moments of stillness, and remind yourself that all He has ever wanted was your heart...
1. Grab a journal or just piece of paper. Now, start making a list when you were quite hard on yourself this week. Can you remember what bothered you? Not enough hours in your day? Not enough sleep? Did you ever wish that you could have someone else’s life because they on the outside looking in they look like they can “do it better?”
2. Now that you have made your list I want you think about your thoughts and motives in the moments when you were truly just “trying.” When you are getting mad at yourself, are you telling yourself that God honors the moments when you are just trying?
Dear Lord, thank You so much for Your unconditional, unwavering, and unfailing love that is freely given to us if we just admit that we are sinners, believe that You are Lord, and confess our faith to You, Lord. Just like the Casting Crowns song says, “Because all You ever wanted, was our hearts.” Thank You Lord, thank You so much, for it is by grace we have been saved, through faith-and this is not from ourselves, it is the gift from You, God. Amen.
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