The Lord directs the steps of the godly. He delights in every detail of their lives. Though they stumble, they will never fall, for the Lord holds them by hand.
– Psalm 37:23-24
I wanted to start with a disclaimer: my story doesn’t have a perfect ending with a bow tied around it. I’m in the midst of it and learning every day, but I will share where I am.
My story starts out very typical of a Christian girl, I grew up in a wonderful Christian home, with loving Christian parents. I went to church every Sunday, and I attended a private Christian school my whole life. I had heard all the stories in the Bible and had been told all throughout my life what I was or wasn’t supposed to do.
It wasn’t until I got to college that I fully understood what it meant to really live out my faith, but I didn’t figure that out right away.
College is an amazing time of freedom. It is when you can change who you are and really do what you want without someone telling you. Well, I put faith on the back-burner freshman year because it was the first time it was on me to go to church or a Bible study. I would go occasionally, but I wasn’t actively pursuing a relationship with God.
l put my identity into multiple other things and some of those weren’t so good for me. I wasn’t putting my identity in Him. After a lot of frustration and mistakes I looked at who I had become, and I wasn’t proud of it. I knew I wasn’t living out a life that was pleasing to God, and I had pushed Him away.
It was then that I decided that I would stop straddling the line between living a life that was for God and living a life for the world. I decided I would give all aspects of my life to Him and really make my faith my own through a relationship with Him.
This caused me to cut out people and activities that I knew weren’t bettering me or helping me in my faith. It wasn’t easy, and it hasn’t been a perfect road, but it has led me to so much growth. I can see the work God was doing as I made these changes and how He blessed me in this process.
I now put my identity in God, in Jesus who won’t let me down like people do, who won’t judge me the way the world will. I get to stand in His grace and know that I’m perfectly imperfect as I am striving to be the daughter He always created me to be. I finally have a real relationship with Him, and it has given me a true joy that the world and people could never give me.
I have made new friendships with people who encourage me and help me grow. I have the two most wonderful mentors and prayer warriors in my life in my Mom and Nana. I love my quiet time with God and look forward to it as it has become such an important part of my day.
Every day is an opportunity for growth and a chance to live for Him and show His love to those around me.
We are called to stand out from this world and not blend in. Is it always easy? Definitely not, but I promise it is so worth it. He wants us to come to Him with our flaws and just put our trust in Him, and He will guide us.
When we really pursue a relationship with Him, it is so precious. I can personally see all the wonderful changes it has brought to my life, and I am so excited to see where He will take me.
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