For God has not given us a spirit of fearfulness but one of power, love, and sound judgement. - 2 Timothy 1:7
There have been so many times in my life that I have felt utterly terrified of making a decision that was presented before me. Which college to go to, which degree path to choose, whether or not my husband and I were ready to have a baby… I could go on and on. But the most recent and scariest decision I’ve had to make was whether or not God was calling our family to adopt. It may seem obvious…of course adoption is ordained by God. But this call from God came at such a busy, hectic, scary time in the life of my family. We are overwhelmed by financial obligations that we are struggling to meet, our son is entering the the “terrible twos,” and it seems so impractical to add the extra financial demand and responsibility of a newborn to our family. But even still, God says, “This is the time,” and we must follow.
It seems impossible for me to be able to put into words just how terrifying that decision seemed in the very beginning. Just facing the possibility of this process and the unknown outcomes seemed like it would completely overtake me. I can say now that I am out of the “paralyzed by fear” stage, but it didn't come easy.
Once I realized that I was allowing the fear of the unknown and the “I see absolutely no possible way to make this work" mentality to rule my life and my decision making, it took very pointed prayer and conversation with God to fix my mindset. It took pointed and dedicated study of God's word to find out what he really had to say about this subject. And friends, He will never let you down.
When I came across a very well known verse again during this time of pointed study, God breathed new life into that verse and used it in a new way to show me that yes, He still had it under control.
For God has not given us a spirit of fearfulness but one of power, love and sound judgment. - 2 Timothy 1:7
God said, “I have not given YOU a spirit of fearfulness. Stop your worrying. Stop your fretting. I can do this.”
Let it be known that from that point on, fear was not completely gone from my life, but I did have new ways to combat the feeling. I was reassured, once again, by my loving and attentive Father that yes, He did have it.
1. What areas in your life are you holding hostage by fear?
2. How can you make steps to work with God in removing that fear?
God, thank You for the thoughtfulness and attention that You put into creating me. Thank You for giving me a spirit of power and love and sound judgement. Help me today to identify the areas in my life that are being choked out by fear. Help me remove that barrier from my life so
that I may serve You unhindered. Amen.
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