For the Lord your God is living among you. He is a mighty savior. He will take delight in you with gladness. With his love, he will calm all your fears. He will rejoice over you with joyful songs. - Zephaniah 3:17
I’ve spent most of my life terrified of what could be around the corner. The looming possibility of change, tragedy, or trauma often sent me into a fit of anxiety - almost unable to function until I somewhat processed whatever the universe threw at me. To me, safety was this fictitious ideal that would never be achieved, yet was always the goal. When I first gave my life to Christ, I remember someone telling me I was safe now. Not knowing what they meant, I continued on with life just assuming in my naive, baby Christian mind that life wouldn’t be able to tear me down anymore. Boy, was I wrong. It’s been almost four years since coming to truly know Jesus and I think it’s safe to say that I’ve seen my fair share of terror. Life certainly isn’t safe. With each blow, a seed that had been planted somewhere was watered. This seed grew into a thorn bush of “God isn’t safe.”
More frequently, I found myself turning from God instead of to Him. Feeling scared? Run away. Feeling anxious? Run away. Unsure about a next step? Run away. Feel unsafe? Run. Away. It seems like the latter half of 2018 was spent running. A culmination of really unfortunate, crappy events left me feeling attacked, unprotected, and completely beaten down. I wasn’t safe. God wasn’t safe. Anxiety. Fear. Run. Away. But here’s the thing: God. Is. Safe. Though I can’t possibly know His plans for me, He is safe. Though I can’t see Him working behind the scenes, He is safe. Though life really sucks and is absolutely terrifying at times, He is safe. So, that’s the word that I’m basing my year on - safe. The knowledge and belief that, no matter what life brings, God is safe and I am safe because I am His. Protected.
1. Is there a time in your life where you felt unsafe? How did you handle that?
2. Do you have someone safe in your life to talk to (e.g. family, friend, mentor, God)?
3. What do you think keeps you from trusting God in hard/scary seasons of life? How can you begin to trust Him in these specific seasons?
God, thank You for continuing to protect me and keep me safe - even when I wasn’t trusting You to do so. Thank You for Your love, grace, and mercy. I need You more than words can say right now, Father. I love You. Amen.