But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength.
They will soar high on wings like eagles.
They will run and not grow weary.
They will walk and not faint. - Isaiah 40:31
I can’t believe 2019 is already here and January is flying by. I’m gonna be super honest with you, 2018 was one of the hardest years I feel I’ve ever had, especially the last 6 months of it. I went into the year with such high hopes and I could see so many exciting things that were to come, but as each one of those events passed none of them seemed to go the way I expected. I found myself in this place where I was constantly exhausted and feeling completely incapable of wanting to do anything or be a part of anything. I would wake up and put on my “happy mask”, go to work, school or whatever that day had in store and do the best I could to be the person I thought everyone else wanted me to be.
Month after month I would tell myself, “This is just a season, it’ll pass.” My exhaustion and feeling of brokenness kept building and I finally reached a point where I realized I just couldn’t do it anymore. I couldn’t keep lying to myself and others, pretending like I was “loving life,” because really who was I fooling?
It was the first weekend in November where God really broke me down and I finally shared what I was feeling with my mentor. She just spoke encouraging words over me. One of the verses she reminded me of was Isaiah 40:31. In this season (and any season) He is my strength. He is in my season of waiting where I don’t understand. He created me to do good works and I wasn’t able to be my best self because I felt so stuck in my hurt. I had been going through my entire 2018 thinking I had life all figured out, and ended up leaving God out of a lot of things. My hurt challenged my faith and trust in Him, leaving me weary and broken. I had stopped talking to Him about my life and giving Him my trust that He was listening to my hurting heart.
2019 is a time for a fresh start and I wanted to step into the year believing that who I am is enough and that God is enough for me in my life. I traded in my brokenness for strength as I promised Him that I would talk to Him about even the littlest things and trust that He would take care of it.
For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do. - Ephesians 2:10 NIV
As we are kicking off this year and moving into all new and different seasons of life, I encourage you to find that thing you are holding on to and say “out with the old” and in with the new strength that you are going to find through Jesus.
1. What is one word that describes your season of life right now? What is a word that you want to live out as you go through 2019?
2. What hurt or struggle are you still carrying that you need to let go of moving into the new year?
3. What is a verse that you want to use as your daily encouragement, to speak truth over your life?
Dear Heavenly Father, You are so faithful. Even when I am broken You are still there to give new strength. I pray that You would help me through this season of waiting, this season of brokenness and allow me to see Your hand in everything. I pray that I would go through my days with open hands knowing that no matter what You are the giver of peace and strength. I love You so much.
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