You have allowed me to suffer much hardship, but
You will restore me to life again and lift me up from the depths of the earth.
You will restore me to even greater honor and comfort me once again.
- Psalm 71:20-21
Fleeting moments of worth. A panicked mind. Both gone a handful of agonizing moments later. Words tumbled from your lips but they seemed to have fallen on careless ears. But don’t make excuses. He said I’m beautiful. He said he loved me. He said it was just his sense of humor. I said don’t make excuses. But you can’t define the reasoning, so I’m not going to try and pretend that I can.
But actions speak louder than words, you say, but now you find yourself having been burned by them both. By the contradiction of one’s actions and one’s words. By them both individually. Now you’re left with shattered trust and a broken reflection of yourself staring back at you in the mirror, and the remaining pieces are so sharp. There’s only one word floating through your mind that won’t relent.
And it tells you that you’ve been used.
Used by? Used for? I’ll let you finish the sentence.
You’re suffering much hardship and the labels of the world hold such a heavy weight on your heart, but sweet girl, for what? If his words could so easily break and bend in a matter of moments, then why does the same broken voice of the world ring so loudly in your ears?
You wrestle with the echoes from the world in your own mind. It’s my fault. I’ve been treated like an object at someone’s disposal. I have no worth. No value. And the hardship extends and pierces the deepest part of your heart. Something that God intended to be such a beautiful gift is now tainted, and it’s no longer beautiful; it’s ugly. It stirs up the most tearful prayers and the most consuming feelings of guilt. The strongest sensation of having been used that won’t fade no many how many tears you wipe from your face. And that broken reflection is what stares back at you, but sweet girl, listen to the voice that rings loud and clear above them all. The voice of the One who runs after you -- pursues you so intimately. The voices that calls you BELOVED. REDEEMED. BEAUTIFUL.
We serve a God of restoration, and He just so happens to see you as so worthy and so precious. He is so in love with you and He won’t let this reflection stay broken because in Him you have been made NEW. The things of the past cease to exist when He looks so lovingly at you.
No matter how far that heavy weight around your heart drags you down, even the depths of the earth aren’t too far for Him to lift you out of.
Those broken pieces that lay before you; they will be put back together. But not just to the way they were before -- He will make you greater than ever. Time and time again, heartache after heartache, He will be there to comfort you again. He takes those lies that have such a strong grip on your heart and He replaces them with beautiful promises of love and restoration and freedom.
I can assure you this -- these promises hold much more weight than a man’s words ever could.
Song of Solomon 4:7 says this: You are altogether beautiful, my darling, beautiful in every way.
Beautiful in every way. In every part of your heart, no matter what the broken voices of this world try and convince you of. And you are worth pursuing. So worthy and so deeply loved. When we come just as we are before the feet of Christ, we are made brand new. Gone is the past, and within us He creates new life.
1. What lies of this world are laying in broken pieces around you right now?
2. How do you see Christ actively working to restore those hurts? What does His Word say about the lies you’re wrestling with?
God, we thank You that You are truly making all things new. Thank You for the depths of Your love, for Your never ending mercy and forgiveness. Help us to remember that You have made us a new creation -- that the past is old and gone. You bind our broken hearts back together from the inside out. You are a God of redemption, and we praise You for that. Thank You so much for Your pursuit of our hearts.
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