“Don’t get used to this, I’m all you need.” These words shook me to the core during a Spring Break mission trip in Georgia. I was standing alongside friends as we were singing worship songs-I looked around at the people who stood beside me, engaged in the music and praise. I was afraid, I didn’t want to lose that community. But I knew deep down it would happen, I wasn’t sure when, but it was coming. Looking back, it’s as if the Spirit was graciously calling out my sin in Savannah - a heads up to start running to Jesus; that He is all I need! Unfortunately, I didn’t catch the hint.

Fast forward almost three years exactly. I’m living in Lisbon, Portugal as a missionary and I’m struck with the memory of that spring day in Savannah. My sin and insecurities were exposed at a time that I felt like I was supposed to be “put together” and have all the answers. This struggle of people pleasing and relying on others instead of God was unsustainable, especially living and adapting to a new culture. How could that be? I was a missionary, wasn’t I supposed to have it all together? Wasn’t I supposed to be an example to others? Why was all I wanted to buy a one-way ticket back to Lexington?

Summer always makes me think of all the women embarking on mission trips around the world. The excitement that comes in packing and praying for the trip to come, all the people you’ll meet and how you’ll get to serve. I think it’s easy to see these times in our lives as a trip that helps others, period. Would you believe me if I told you we had it backwards? A former leader of mine, and missionary, once told me that mission trips are not just a week of your lives and then you go back to normal. Rather, they are a part of our sanctification process.

My time on the mission field has brought about a vulnerability in me that has allowed God to prove that He is the solid rock I stand on. He is continuing to prune me - and that’s not a gentle process! Being on the other side of it all, I can attest to the saying, “Beauty is pain,” but also that God creates beautiful things out of us. Romans 8:28 reminds us that ALL THINGS work together for the good of those who love God. Trust that. God wants all of me. God wants all of you. In letting Him into all the areas of our lives, in letting go of the insecurities and sinful nature I’ve been able to experience God abundantly more than I did three years ago.

He is all we need. I urge you, no matter where you are - serving in a foreign country, taking classes, or babysitting - it doesn’t matter where you go, it’s who you follow. Lean into our Father and trust that He is all you need!



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