Oftentimes blessings from God come in unexpected ways. Being a Christian for most of my life, this was not something that I truly believed the whole time.
When I was around five years old, my parents became followers of Jesus. I then accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior in fourth grade and as I grew up, I continued to look to my parents for examples of how to live a Christian life. During my childhood and teenage years, I never struggled with anything I felt like I couldn’t handle on my own.
This shifted my attention away from the Lord and made me feel in control of my own life “plan.” I didn’t yet understand that I needed to seek the Lord and lean into what He wanted from me.
When I started college, I was excited to figure out what I wanted to do with my life, failing to remember that God’s plan and purpose for me was greater than my own wants and goals. However, during the summer of 2010 between my freshman and sophomore year, my family was hit with a struggle like never before. My Mom was diagnosed with ovarian cancer. This curveball left me feeling helpless, angry, and confused. How could God let my Mom get cancer?
That was the hardest thing for me to grasp in the beginning. However, as my Mom began her treatments, she set the example of relying on the Lord and trusting in His plan. Yes she was scared, but she dug into the Word and relied on the truth of what God promises us.
“When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel, your savior…” Isaiah 43:2-3 NIV.
This verse became my Mom’s life verse, displaying her full belief that she was trusting that the Lord was with her and that she could lean on Him to help her stay strong. This was so powerful to me. If my Mom, who was sick, could trust the Lord’s plan completely, then I knew I needed to as well. This was a turning point for me in my life. Why was I trying to control and plan everything, when the Lord was calling me just to put my trust in Him and His plan?
Throughout the next few years, I continued to struggle off and on with this. My Mom went through multiple treatments, surgeries and recurrences. During the last year of her life, my Mom got to baptize her own parents, a longtime prayer she had. We rejoiced during this time, knowing that this horrible sickness helped bring my grandparents to the Lord.
God did not give my Mom cancer as I originally questioned, but He used the sin and sickness of this fallen world to give us unexpected blessings. Since going through the loss of my Mom, I have learned to trust the Lord’s plan, no matter how hard that may seem. Through the Lord’s plan my Mom was able to share her testimony with hundreds of people at our church. Through the Lord’s plan my grandparents are now followers of Christ. Through the Lord’s plan I have learned to put my faith in Him, knowing that I cannot plan and control everything in life. We NEED to lean on the Lord through our struggles, no matter how big or small. He is in control and he has a plan for each one of our lives.
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“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” - Jeremiah 29:11