Written by: Mac Underwood
Have you ever had someone say, “I’ll tell you when you’re older?” Most likely, yes. How about “I’ll tell you when you’re witnessing a pandemic?” Probably, not. However, it’s in the stillness that I’ve learned who God is and what He is to me.
I remember the news about China battling this awful sickness. I prayed over them, but had a sense of relief it wasn’t touching my hometown. However, as it drew closer and closer… anxiety kicked in. What would happen if it came over to me?
As warnings came in, I started to search Amazon for sanitizer, face masks, etc. you know, just in case. Unfortunately, I wasn’t able to afford the steep upcharges asked for. I turned the news on each day even though I NEVER watch the news. My phone started to become a research center for statistics. What were the rates today? Tomorrow? 20 years from now? My body was filling up with so much anxiety of the unknown that I finally reached my breaking point. Then I heard a voice in my soul saying, “Bring it to Me.” So that’s what I did.
I have always been a Christian, said prayers over my food and at night before bed, when I wasn’t too exhausted. I prayed when I needed help. I prayed when people around me we're suffering. I prayed when I was suffering.
However, have you ever had a friendship or relationship where the other person only comes to you when they need something? I have and I’ve been so annoyed! Well, I started to realize that’s exactly what I’d been doing to God! God had placed so many miracles in my life, but I didn’t take the time to praise Him for them as much as I should have. I only turned to God when I thought I needed Him, which was in my suffering.
The truth? I need God all the time. Yes, I came to God amidst the anxiety I was feeling of the world. I asked God to take it from me and replace it with the kind of peace only God can give. You know what? For the first time, when my family was mentioning scary things in the world, I was okay. I wasn’t creating a survival shopping list in my head. I was at peace because I knew I didn’t have to control all of this, God has got it.
But you know what comforted me even more? Returning to God’s Word. Before all of this craziness, I had two full time jobs, tried to squeeze in workouts, and was overwhelmed and stressed all the time. I would open the Bible, commit to a Bible reading plan, only to fail once again. I just couldn’t find the time. But now, I have nothing but time. I have immersed myself in His Word and have dedicated time to Him. I no longer only seek God when I think I need Him, but I seek Him every day. I feel peace, joy, hopefulness despite what the world looks like because I know that this world isn’t the end for us.
I spend time praising God amidst the darkness because I know the promises God has made. God does not fail us. If Jesus can praise the Father knowing He was going to die in a painful manner, be mocked, and humiliated for not His own fault, but ours, we too can praise God because we know of His love, His grace, and His mercy!
Amidst the pain and suffering of the world today, I have found God. I have not just found the God that I need when I’m hurting, but I’ve found the God I want by my side every single day. In this silence, with the world stopping spinning, we can take this opportunity to draw nearer to God, to focus on the things that really matter, and receive the kind of peace that only God can give. The silence helps muffle out the distractions and puts you in a place where you can truly hear God’s Words.
If you’re in the same place I was, God is asking you to bring it to Him.
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