Written by: Kelly Alford
“What do you believe in?” That was the question that broke me.
It was at that moment that I realized that there was nothing in my life that I believed in so deeply or passionately that I was willing to sacrifice everything. At that moment, I felt alone, empty, and insignificant. It was at that moment that I felt my world crashing down around me.
I was asked this question by a sorority sister I really admired; at the time of the conversation, I did not know her well (she has now become my best friend and supporter of my faith). She was not even asking about my faith; it was just a general question. But faith is what I related it to because I knew something was missing in that area of my life. I realized that I was not living for God; I was living for myself and the world. I was just completely shattered.
Over the next year, the Lord slowly put me back together and reshaped me into the person he had designed me to be. He filled me up, showed me who He made me to be, and led me right into my God-given plan and purpose. He showed me what it meant to be a child of God and to walk in that identity. I had run away from God without even really noticing it. I thought admitting belief in God was enough. I grew up knowing God, and I never doubted that God was real. I had always considered myself a Christian, but I realized that I was not living my life as if I believed in Christ.
Saying you believe in God is not enough. I did that, and I thought I was okay. But the verse has two parts “If you confess with your mouth that Jesus is lord AND believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.” Romans 10:9-10 (emphasis added). You have to also believe in your heart.
Believing in your heart is different from just saying you believe in God. Believing in your heart is allowing God in and realizing that He is not just the big man in the sky. He is your best friend; He is your redeemer; He is your Lord, and so much more. Believing in your heart is realizing that you can have a personal relationship with Jesus.
When you let God in and make Him the biggest part of your life, that is the only way to satisfy your soul. When you look to other people, they will just let you down, but God never fails. Following God is by no means easy. It requires denying yourself daily and agreeing to the plans that God has for your life. God’s plans are perfect, though, and “He works all things for the good” (Romans 8:28). Choosing to follow God was the best decision I ever made.
Simple questions can sometimes lead to the most significant revelations. I finally have an answer to the question of “What do you believe in?” I don’t just believe in God, I believe in a God who loves me, who is there for me always, whose plans are good, and who never fails.
It is funny how God can reach a person. I was broken and alone, in the middle of sorority recruitment, an unlikely circumstance. But God was there. Through one conversation, God found me and took me as I was. God shows up in unexpected places and unexpected ways.
If a man has a hundred sheep and one of them goes astray, will he not leave the ninety-nine on the hills and go out to search for the one that is lost? And if he finds it, truly I tell you, he rejoices more over that one sheep than over the ninety-nine that did not go astray. - Matthew 8:12-13.
God loves all of His children more than we could ever imagine, and He will go to the ends of the earth to find them. He left the 99 to find me, and He will leave the 99 to find you too.
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