Written by: Nicole Hankinson
When I came to college, I had no idea what I was doing. I didn’t know what I wanted to major in. I didn’t know how to make friends. I didn’t know my way around campus. I didn’t know what I wanted to be involved in. And the list goes on and on.
All in all, I was lost.
I was searching for things to fill a hole I had. I had accepted the Lord in my life, but I made it more of a religion rather than a relationship. I signed up for sorority recruitment because I thought I would make friends and find a community. As I was going through this process, I noticed that I wasn’t being myself. I would change my answers to questions to sound more appealing to them rather than answering how I truly felt. By the second week, I was very confused and felt like the Lord was telling me recruitment and sorority life wasn’t what He had for me in this season. I was very uneasy because all throughout high school, my plan was to come to college and join a sorority. But, again that was MY plan not the Lord’s plan.
I ended up dropping out of the recruitment process and decided that I needed to find something to fill my time. I came across the Baptist Campus Ministry at the University of Kentucky. Becoming involved with the BCM was the best thing that could have happened. I found community and learned how to be who God made me to be instead of what I thought I was supposed to be. I have made so many amazing and wonderful friends. But, most importantly, I found how to make my relationship with the Lord my own.
The lesson I was taught during this time was that I don’t need to follow my plans, but listen to Lord’s plans. John 13:7 states, “You don’t understand now what I am doing, but someday you will.” This verse is very encouraging to me because we will never know what the Lord’s plan is at that time, but we do know that whatever does happen will be what’s best and will glorify Him.
Before coming to college, my prayer life was nonexistent. I thought it was a little silly that we would talk to ourselves and rely on the Lord to be able to hear us somehow. I had little trust in leaning on the Lord, from different obstacles that He placed in my life. Now I know that the Person on the opposite side of that prayer is ALWAYS LISTENING. I might not get the answer I want right in that moment, but He is listening and will meet me where I need Him to.
Psalm 28:7 states, “The LORD is my strength and my shield; in him my heart trusts, and I am helped; my heart exults, and with my song I give thanks to him.” When we put our faith in God, He will find ways to return that trust. He will guide us and protect us. This is a promise that I am very grateful for!